My life has been guided with this passage from the Bible, Matthew 21:22 … And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.” I am writing this to anyone who has also been guided with this passage and feel they are not getting what they are asking for. To believe that you have received what you have asked for is the hardest part in prayer. Even when I was younger, I already love these words ….Believe even when there is no hope, believe when no one around you doesn't - BELIEVE AND YOU WILL RECEIVE. Like many others, I also have many dry spells in my life. In fact, I once found myself in a real desert, feeling so lonely, devoid of finances as if you could really say that what a powerful feeling of needing money can be, and most especially no emotional freedom in the sense that I need to be somebody who is not the real me just to please people around whom I loved and I like to be with. In spite of these odd pretensions, it is still very hard for me to reach the limelight although I managed to be an achiever. I excelled mostly in all areas of life I am into. However, sometimes people respond to my achievements differently than I expect. I’ve noticed that I kept meeting odd blockages along the way. Would you believe that a person who for no apparent reason hated me of something I don’t even know? Then I realized that it is because I have so much hatred in my heart. I have been tremendously hurt when my father left us for somebody whom he believed better than us. I was certain that the hate drove me forward in life, made me not only a fighter but an achiever, ready to take on any obstacle. And I was right - anger dominated in all areas of my life. Yet my circumstances were only getting worse as I was blocking anything good from coming to me and I attracted every negative situation in life. Like, I gave up my teaching profession in just one click of my thumb which I was with for almost 13 years, I’ve hurt so many friends in some ways which was very hard to patch up, business was so down, were behind on all of our payments and I saw no way out… As if God didn't seem to be cooperating. I was to the point of despair.
Then one day, I was in the church at that time listening to the speaker of a Marian Retreat. The speaker mentioned that if you want to achieve what you have been dreaming for and if you want to receive more you should master the ability to give THANKS…It is important to note that we should remember to thank our creator. Give thanks for our body and mind and our ability to work, to feel the hurt, to dream, to activate, and to achieve. So, I was touched with what he said and I truly gave thanks and unquestionably felt the gratitude. I started to forgive and forget. I started to culture love and affection. I was somewhat successful at first and had some amazing things happen, yet knew that I was missing the boat somewhere along the line.
Until one day, things were so desperate that I felt I was at the end of my rope again. We had less than zero in our bank account, our credit had not been paid and was due, Left and right phone calls from the bank etc. I still did not let that effect me. I told myself whatever would be would be. I gave it over to God and Mama Mary and I redoubled my efforts to focus only on what I wanted no matter what was going on around me. It is not just a 24 – 7 faith, it is an “as-if faith”…then, I imagined clearly the solutions to every problem. I told myself, "I can do it! I begin to pay attention to the nudges I was getting, and I stopped worrying! I spoke only of what I wanted in my life and believe that it is on its way to me. Most importantly, I never gave up even when it seemed like things could not get any worse. I believe faith works, I trust God to know and fill my needs, and I had utter faith that something wonderful had happened. I also began to understand that love of self is incredibly important.
These days I envision my life as a problem-free (ha ha). It became very clear to me that I needed to activate change, prosperity, and positive energy again in my life. So, I started to smile and feel a very happy feeling as if I see smiles everywhere I look. Hearts overfilled with warmth and love for all the beauty life has to offer each of us. I see joy and amazement all around me. I am so filled with gratitude that I am sure I will burst into a million pieces and come back together as me, over and over again. What a glorious feeling to have and to be!
My greatest dream is to help others learn how to be happy and grateful in the midst of all the odds of life. My desire to do my part, to bring people back to our creator as I am patching the lope holes I was in and spread how wonderful life is and how lucky we are. I want to say to anyone who needs encouragement, anyone losing hope, and anyone who thinks this might not work, to keep focusing on what your heart desires, keep at it, be persistent, trust completely, believe entirely, and faith will find you and bring you every single thing you want. I want to shout it to let the whole world know. I am so grateful for every breath I take, everything of beauty I see, for every person on this planet and beyond. I want to say – something good is waiting for you. Just believe and never stop in believing! Have faith in God and you can have your hearts' desire! Faith is not believing that God can but faith is believing that God will.
It really, really works! I am living proof!
Then one day, I was in the church at that time listening to the speaker of a Marian Retreat. The speaker mentioned that if you want to achieve what you have been dreaming for and if you want to receive more you should master the ability to give THANKS…It is important to note that we should remember to thank our creator. Give thanks for our body and mind and our ability to work, to feel the hurt, to dream, to activate, and to achieve. So, I was touched with what he said and I truly gave thanks and unquestionably felt the gratitude. I started to forgive and forget. I started to culture love and affection. I was somewhat successful at first and had some amazing things happen, yet knew that I was missing the boat somewhere along the line.
Until one day, things were so desperate that I felt I was at the end of my rope again. We had less than zero in our bank account, our credit had not been paid and was due, Left and right phone calls from the bank etc. I still did not let that effect me. I told myself whatever would be would be. I gave it over to God and Mama Mary and I redoubled my efforts to focus only on what I wanted no matter what was going on around me. It is not just a 24 – 7 faith, it is an “as-if faith”…then, I imagined clearly the solutions to every problem. I told myself, "I can do it! I begin to pay attention to the nudges I was getting, and I stopped worrying! I spoke only of what I wanted in my life and believe that it is on its way to me. Most importantly, I never gave up even when it seemed like things could not get any worse. I believe faith works, I trust God to know and fill my needs, and I had utter faith that something wonderful had happened. I also began to understand that love of self is incredibly important.
These days I envision my life as a problem-free (ha ha). It became very clear to me that I needed to activate change, prosperity, and positive energy again in my life. So, I started to smile and feel a very happy feeling as if I see smiles everywhere I look. Hearts overfilled with warmth and love for all the beauty life has to offer each of us. I see joy and amazement all around me. I am so filled with gratitude that I am sure I will burst into a million pieces and come back together as me, over and over again. What a glorious feeling to have and to be!
My greatest dream is to help others learn how to be happy and grateful in the midst of all the odds of life. My desire to do my part, to bring people back to our creator as I am patching the lope holes I was in and spread how wonderful life is and how lucky we are. I want to say to anyone who needs encouragement, anyone losing hope, and anyone who thinks this might not work, to keep focusing on what your heart desires, keep at it, be persistent, trust completely, believe entirely, and faith will find you and bring you every single thing you want. I want to shout it to let the whole world know. I am so grateful for every breath I take, everything of beauty I see, for every person on this planet and beyond. I want to say – something good is waiting for you. Just believe and never stop in believing! Have faith in God and you can have your hearts' desire! Faith is not believing that God can but faith is believing that God will.
It really, really works! I am living proof!
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